always, always, never fail,
i thought of saying a better sorry,
yet it will never be done,
so why does this always happen?
i can never tell,
and yet never ask why,
so the end will never be....

a sorry was no easy,
yet it was what must be done,
though that is what people say,
is it what the person sought?

all actions have their reactions,
that is one of the many laws...
yet what reactions can be foreseen?
yet what action would be the best?

life is for learning,
and that is true...
yet what is learning,
if everything dream of came true?

when people say"i'm sorry.."
don't belief it entirely...
for it will never be truly...
for it seems to be hardly...

if you are worthy...
then you will have the mercy...
yet when you are not the above...
it will be just a dream of mercy...

sry....

sry....sry....sry....
cannot even say one of it...
what is so hard about it???
because when u do wrong,
thats the hard part to admit...
to admit u are wrong...
the guilt that will build up...
is just too much...
i'm sorry....

life

life is....

i dun know it just sucks....
life beautiful what is there to complaint??
life is about food...yea baby....
life is nice if and only if u know how to look at it....
i dun know it just the plain stuff....
why should you care???!!


anymore to add?? so which one are u??

which??

is reality better than visual??
is answer better than unanswered??
is avoiding better than meeting??
is talking better than thoughts??
is this writing better than keeping??
which is which??

dreams...

I dreamed...
dream of you treating me as a friend...
how relieve was I...
when I woke up...
realized it was just a dream...
My hope drop beyond hell...

Again into dream world...
meet you there again...
yet it was a nightmare...
the moment you see me...
you avoid me...
it did not end there...
I tried to make it up....
but rounds i went...
find my self got lost...
where to find???
woke up...
another reality being brought to my dreams...

wonder...

wonders can really work wonders,
yet I still wonder and wander,
to wander for those wonders,
I became a wanderer,
just so as so to wonder wonders....

how come...

If a crack wall can be repaired,
repair by putting on cement...

If a broken glasses can be a glass again,
by melting and molding it again...

If a wound can be mend,
mend by using medicines...

If a rotten bread can be replaced,
replace by making a new one...

Then why mine cannot be anything?
even though I went all the way,
to the ends of the earth....

1st video..amazing...

LOL found this while surfing the web for new layout...XD

a-ll

when everything swell,
then it is all unwell,
like me hiding in a shell,
everything is only shall,
and will never be well,
because it is similar to hell,
where everything cannot be sell,
and deep inside a dark well...

wan it back

i want it back,
i want to turn back,
i dun want the shock,
i want to turn back the clock...

timezz....

they say all need time,
but is it only be done through time?
then what about change?
does it really need time?
or is it just the mind of mine,
the mind that need thine...
or is it just a sign of lie??

done...

what is done cannot be undone,
what is undone can be done,
true enough, what is done cannot be undone,
but with will all can be done.

piece and peace

how can there be peace?
when all of it is in pieces...
is this really life?
where it is all a puzzle?

the regret

self denial starts today,
where the truth and false comes,
truth is I cannot bear looking,
false is I want to ignore you...

another chinese 1....LOL

生命如花朵，
小时如孩儿，
花开如大了，
枯了如走了。

花开有多困难，
结果如找个伴，
不会一次就胜，
而是败中学胜。

但花弄人迷，
因华儿带香，
花香弄人迷，
永远记那香。

枯花如悲伤，
花落是记忆，
时落时悲伤，
只能永在忆。

sometimes

sometimes,

words are just too powerful so i dun post it...
i can only write and not post...
still there is desire to post...
yet being considerate, i dun post...

see how good i'm I....hahahahahaha

Ελληνικό κείμενο

σε αγαπώ

muahhaaha.....o.0''

whee...japanese

hmmm...dun use a translator...XD cause it might be wrong...
muahahaha

私はあなたの愛ですか？私はいつもあなたを待っ...

again....an easy 1...hahah

world of artificial intelligent needs intelligents.....

the 2nd meaning for this is??1,1;1,2;1,3;1,4....

yea...guess what is the second meaning for this....

world often keen eyed,
yet interest affects individual,
new individual makes alteration?

can u guess it??haha...those that i hav shown b4 hand...shhh...lol

the 2nd meaning....1,1;2,2;...5,5;6,5;...10,1

Lord I need your help,
But is what i am doing correct?
Is this expected of me?
Is there any wise advise?
Am I worthy of help?
Help from you to us...
In hope that it would be better,
The silhouette needs illumination from thee...
But Eprhaim needs this healing,
Ever to do what you decide...


To those who know the 2nd meaning already,
bear with keeping it pls...thx...

noticed?

i would say here this is a little of what i notice...
right...
i can only say...the so called"ignore"
somehow they just do it,
then when ask about it they just say,
got meh? haiz...so confused...

confused

i'm confused...
why, why, why...
i dun understand,
i want to understand,
but it seems like...
it will take ages to...
can u just tell me why?

季节 2

假如张大眼睛看，
季节如个大灾难，
人人只等着春季，
应它可有多美丽。

但夏季秋季冬季，
它们有时被喜爱，
有时被恨得哭了，
所有是个人看法。

现在对我来说呢，
它们是个大灾难，
应它们刚好解释，
解释我愁眉苦脸。

一季好三季痛苦，
春，漂亮无话可说；
夏，热得满身大汗；
秋，叶落如哀声似；
冬，雪如滴滴眼泪。

questions...

what really is the thinking of a human mind?
how can one satisfy it?
how much things can there be?
just how, why, what...

did u know the silhouette of thee?
though it is in a mist,
but still i can see it,
no matter how much light put out,
i would seems like it is day time bright,
though happy is not there every time,
cause thine shadow overshadowed by faults of life...

季节(订正了)

这次特别为你写...

通常世界可分为四个季节，
那就是春夏秋冬，
生命也可以用这四季，
所谓生命是那么的复杂。

春季是多么的美妙，
花儿一朵朵的开...
生命是那么的美妙美丽，
人人希望不会错过的一段时间。

夏季可有那么的热，
把之前的花朵枯萎了，
人命就这样被别人所说的影响，
使到身体有肉可无灵魂。

秋季叶子一一的掉落，
把棵棵树脱光关的，
所为人经过那人影响后，
就像被那人解除武装 。

冬季那树已是瘦瘦的了，
它的前途未决定，
人到了这可说是很痛苦，
他已冷到骨里,无可奈何了 。

roses...

You are the rose,
The rose which make my life grow,
How I want to salvage the rose,
But the salvaging dun seem to grow...

You are the rose,
The rose which has the special aroma,
But getting hold of you is hard,
For the thorns are there...

No matter how pain it will be,
To just pick u up in the bush of thorns,
It would be worth while,
For you are the special one...

You buried your self in ice,
It is hard to break in,
For the slightest mistake is costly,
And I dun want to lose thee...

Time...

it was like a field of roses,
looking for the one that roses,
yet among roses,
only one can become the Rose of all Roses...

yet all of them were red,
search frantically for that special red,
in the end it was not red,
but a white among red...

i tried to water it,
everyday thinking of it,
everyday hope bloom will come to it,
and there i was everyday with it...

then disaster come over the land,
that rose just disappear from the land,
and the land became darkest among all the land,
yet the hope for that whiteness in the land...

this...

It is, was, now, and those yet to come...

I was there in search for a clover...
All of it was normal,
All had only 3 leave...
And people said this to me...
1 represents for hope...
2 represents for faith...
3 represents for love...
But i needed a clover which of special in its own way...
So i continued the search...
And so i found the one...
The one that i was so fond of...
A four leaf clover...
Now people say this...
4 represents for luck...
It is so perfect actually...
I needed the hope so things might have a chance...
The faith to wait patiently for it will never come twice...
The love which i wanted so badly...
The luck that might fill my palm of having it...

huh??

things seems to be,
yet it seems not it seems,
yet wanting to see,
is just what it seems...

why then seen and the seems?
when seen is after seems...
seems is just before seen,
and yet people are confused for what they seen...

haha...i have no idea...what is seems and seen...lol...

dissapointment

o well...i suppose i still can write "poem" without seing her...i hope... lets try 1...

God is almighty,

He is the highest on heaven and earth,

Obey him no matter what,

For no God hates his people and want them to do bad...

next is about her...lol...

she will be there,

there in my heart,

the place where it stands high,

will never fall till it really end...

past and present

life was thing i look forward to last time,
but now it once the sword came,
and i accepted the pain,
it all dulls down...

the face smiles when u see me,
but the heart was inserted a dagger every time,
every time i see you still the same happen,
so i have to be a zombie that dun feel...

zombie may i be,
but i know what is happening,
and i know every happening was from u,when with u
but now everything i must hide also from u, when with u

so i shall end now, for now...
peace to the world,
may it have peace in every soul,
may all souls find the peace of heaven and earth...

well...

well...it had to come to this...
hmmm...i hope no grammar or anything error...lol
fine...
things fine....
things are fine...
things are just fine...

that was a double edge sword...
how pain it was...
but paradigm shift have to be make...
for it cannot be like that anymore...

right, right...
it was for my own good...
the fantasy of mine ends...
and the reality has to come...

why...2

fine...the answer did come...

answer was like...
what i hope it would be...
but yet...
things just seem weird...

something is not right...
where is the answer now???
where can it be???
where is the puzzle???

why...

k lo...short 1 lo this time..very short...hope the 1 i want you to read do read this...haiz...


suddenly the uncertain comes,
it strike hard,
so i asked a question,
hoping to clear the cloud.

till that answer come,
nothing shall be done,
when the answer come,
all cannot be undone.

please give me the answer now,
for the clouds are covering you now,
and I'm afraid of it now,
why must it be now?

4 to 5 words...a sentence...

In this blog there is no actual sequence or arrangement cause i too lazy to do it...sry...
IF...IF only you are good enough, only some is the one I'm feeling now...others are like words between words...

Infatuation is a feeling,
Like is a feeling,
Love is a feeling,
Lust is a feeling.

The meaning of feeling,
Is so close yet...
It can be far,
For it is categorized.

Infatuation will become like,
Like will become love,
And love wouldn't lust,
For lust isn't love.

It is fun to infatuate,
For the feeling is weird.
Weird and yet somehow good.
Good yet can be bad...

Like is higher infatuation version.
For it is better understanding.
Understanding comes when you decided,
That you might have chance...

Love is further in life,
Where the dream comes true.
The one dreamed is here,
And the yearn is there.

Then what is this lust?
Lust when want the extreme,
It is not like love,
For love is the maximum.

The dream is there,
And dare to dream.
Dream might come true,
Or dream of disaster.

When feeling dulls down,
What would it mean?
Wanting to be there,
and hope for otherwise...

See what you want,
But things are horrid,
For the sight comes,
And tears the heart...

Yet you want to see,
For it is very smoothing,
Avoiding what hurts the most,
but have seen it all...

Choice to choose was yours,
Yet choice not been made,
So hope the best answer,
And heart wonder every time...

Hope to be one,
One be with it,
Yet it's not you,
Can you not it???

Meditate what is seen,
Outcome of the seen,
Has yet it seems,
And seems to sin.

Though it seems sin,
What is to sin?
Look to be sin?
Or sin to look?

Yearn what is yearn not,
Yearn not cannot be yearn.
Yearn what is the right,
And have rights to yearn...

Ask what is not asked,
Asked will be ask,
Ask to be ask,
So ask not ask?

Ask seem be right,
Right to just ask,
Ask gets whats right,
un-right when no asked...

Lie is a lie,
Lie cannot be white,
Lie cannot be dark,
For lies stays lies.

Why all the lies,
If lies isn't needed?
To cover up right?
Or to cover lies???

Lie to the right,
Sad to be right.
Weaker is lies rights,
Yet lie is right...

Hope right is the right,
If right is not right,
Then rights not all right,
When rights not given right.

Rest is the test,
Test is the rest,
Rest not the test,
Test not the rest.

Rest not the thought,
Thought not the rest.
How to rest thoughts?
When thought rest not???

Things can be ended,
End would the things.
Why end the things?
When things not ended???

life...

This is about life...so ya...should be happy... XD

You hear joys of life...
More than sorrows of life,
For life is once in a lifetime...
There were never meant to be a second.

Cheers for every minutes,
For it might be your very end,
Life is valuable like the formation of diamonds,
It is meant for grateful people...

Life is like a plant,
For a not watered plant,
Is like a life waiting to be end...
So nourish yourself so life do not end...

Nourish with what is good only,
Do not absorb what is bad,
For a plant that is watered with acid dies.
So beware of what you are nourish with...

A plant has soil for foundation,
So is foundation important in our life.
For whatever reason it maybe,
Do for getting a better base...

Be kind and never stingy,
For even a plant needs hole for excess water.
Why keep what you do not need?
Give and you will receive other you might need.

Live in truth and never in darkness.
A plant grow in light and not in dark.
Wilt it will with the absence of light.
So do only the just and right...

Plants grow with spread out roots,
So should we have open arms.
To receive what is bestow
And keep and use for whatever is good...

A plant is cut and trimmed...
To make it beautiful and ever grand...
So should we right what is wrong,
So we can be the true standing light...

Joy and Happy...

well...some1 Just someone will not say who...say that my previous blog was emo...so ya...
got 2 more today, actually 3...1 emo 1...heh...anyway will try to put the happy 1st...
dun know how happy can happy be but who cares...
haha...emo 1 are better to write... XD

Joy and happy are just words of descriptions,
Words that are simple yet thoughtful,
Can it really be just one word?
Or is it words with thousand feel?

Happy, happy, happy,
Words that should bring memories,
Memories of thing that fills with joy,
Joy that make the heart feel so blessed...

Memories of joy are like graces,
Getting something that was not to get...
It did not come because we were near to graves...
But a accumulation of gifts of simple task yet...

How nice it is to thought of it...
It is not made nor destroyed,
It is we who decide of it...
To be thrown or to ignored.

Steps of sorrow may be dark,
But steps of joy is ever bright,
Like a path of way of pleasant light,
That is the hope of every might...

Jumping of joy may sound un-right,
But it is true when happy fills the heart.
Happy are those who are so kind at heart,
For if darkness come joys their might...

Though it may seem joy is hard to reach,
It is like choosing a comfort bench,
That will be a place of rest,
Rest in mind and feel so blessed...

DONE 1st SHOuld BE Happy 1...

dun have time to type the other 1 out so maybe later...
sry folks.. Xp...heh...

damn free...LOL

this is what happens when u cannot do physic for like......1 or 2 hours? heh i also dun know
so ya...dun know how the hell i come out with this but ya...emo 1...haha

here it is...Dun ask what it mean...because i dun know how the hell I got this also...maybe because I did not study my physics... xp

How could I be the one u like?
How can I be your brightest light?
How can I be a selfish me?
To not think of your feeling...right?

Why can't it be the only one?
Why must there be a second tide?
Why did I wanted to be your pride?
For it would be choice of injustice made...

Where can it be that I forget?
What would it mean to forget you...not?
No matter how hard i try...
It would be like a lonely joy to say...never...

Your words of nonacceptance,
It was a horrid night to me...
Your word also can be so delight,
It was words that stay every night...

Like a stone at the corner of the house,
Try as hard to be the central light...
But move not were he all day and night,
It was you who it will strive...

Attention was given to you alone,
But it would mean like a sharpening stone.
That will make those beautiful things wear off,
And will make things sharp for you...

This will never end till death,
For death be the only rest,
Rest will bring the unwanted test,
Test that will clear the mess...

This may sound like a old man's vest,
That is worn and torn,
But the truth that hurts the most is,
The thought of letting you go...

NOOOOOO...THE END...LOL...

sadness...

things just dun seem to be in the right order,
things just dun seem to be fitting in,
things just dun seem to be like it is suppose to be there,
things just dun seem to be working,
things just dun seem to be there,
things just dun seem to be right,
things just dun seem to be wrong too,
things just dun seem to be going as wanted,
things just dun seem to be getting better,
things just dun seem to be good by asking,
things just dun seem to be good with all the media,
things just dun seem to be good by just answering,
things just dun seem to be good by just slacking
things just dun seem to be well of by ignoring,
things just dun seem to be well to by caring,
things just dun seem to be ok with what is going to happen,
things just dun seem to be ok with where it is heading,
things just seem to be undone,
things just seem to be unrepairable,
things just seem to get worst,
things just seem to be unjust,
things just seem to be so sad...

why the things cannot always be 100% what we want it to be?
why the things are just somehow against us?
why things can just twist one persons mind?
why things can just be describe but yet seem to be something missing??
why? why? why?
why just can it be the way of the how we want it to be??
life somehow can be saddening if thought of like this...
life can also be cheerful if we just have acceptance...
but where is this acceptances roots?
where can it be found?
how?
too much sadness too by wanting to find it...

Things happens....

when tell too much....things happens....
when ask too much....things happens....
when do too much....things happens....
when seek too much....things happens....
when care too much....things happens....
when study too much....things happens....
when know too much....things happens....
when think too much....things happens....
when wonder too much....things happens....
when find too much....things happens....
when money too much....things happens....

THIS is the newton 3rd law....haha....action and reaction....

how much different does it make?

how much different does it make to ask?
how much different does it make to lie?
how much different does it make to say?
how much different does it make to ignore?
how much different does it make to answer?
how much different does it make to do?
how much different does it make to seek?
how much different does it make to emo?
how much different does it make to not to be there?
how much different does it make to be there?
how much different does it make to be good?
how much different does it make to be kind?
how much different does it make to be evil?
how much different does it make to hate?
how much different does it make to be happy?
how much different does it make to accept?
how much different does it make to non-acceptation?
how much different does it make to act?
how much different does it make to laze?
how much different does it make to wait and see?
how much different does it make to just do it?
how much different does it make to just think of it?
how much different does it make to just learn from it?
how much different does it make to just like it?
how much different does it make to write it down?
how much different does it make to memorize it?
how much different does it make to make things up?
how much different does it make to just back away?
how much different does it make to continue this?

how much different? how is it measured? how is it possible?
how things are just like that....

things...

2nd emo post....yeah...muahahaha

things are yet to be known,
things are yet to be decided,
things are yet to be heard,
things are yet to be seen,
things are yet to be ask,
things are yet to be done,
things are yet to be lied,
things are yet to be answered,
things are yet to be judged,
things are yet to be settled,

things are yet to be things...
things are yet to be laughed at...
things are yet to be like a dream...
things are yet to be like a obligation
things are yet to be like ME!!!!haha....

WANT TO....

since it has been like...lets see...
2 happy post... so it shall be and emo 1 here now...
dun want to b emo? i would suggest u dun read on....
any unbalance emotion caused by reading...
is not the fault of the author...
LOL...

want to forget, but the scar is there,
want to remember, but things should not be like this;
want to be sad, but there is no reason,
want to be happy, but things are just like this;
want to release, but the heart cannot accept the fact,
want to hold on, but things preventing this;
want to talk, but there seem to be something there,
want to stop the talk, but hate to do this;
want to avoid, but it is still there,
want to avoid-not, but things happen to be like this;

want to do this, but this is what happen,
want to do this not, but have done it le...haha...

why this post?? read the topic again....hehehehe

Amazement...

amaze how things can happen,
amaze at how things revolve,
amaze how things goes around,
amaze at how things impact the heart,
amaze how gossips goes around,
amaze at how gossips does its works,
amaze how gossips kill ones heart,
amaze at how look melt ones heart,
amaze how look fills the heart,
amaze at how action speaks,
amaze how action can be so permanent,
amaze at how action kills ones thought,

AMAZE AT HOW BOREDOM AFFECT THE MIND... HAHA...

Randomness

when talk, talk of her...
when think, think of her...
when do, do for her...
when ask, ask of her...
when lie, lie of her...
when search, search of her...
when emo, emo of her...
when happy, happy of her...
when care, care of her...

This is just PURE RANDOMNESS!!!

Confirmed...

i have been confirmed...muahahahaaha....i dun know y.....lol...

lame of the lame?

consider wat u consider to b the unconsider to b considered as the consider who consider the considered to b consider as the considered consider...XD

Thoughtzzzz...

What i heard was trying to push me forward but...how? is it ok? it was like saying it was ok...but is it ok? life Just cannot be single sided....

FORCED TO DO THIS....

THIS GAME WAS NOt by me....but it was quite fun...try it...

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 21 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

1. if someone says 'are you okay', you say?
   the reason...(wat la i hate this...)
   
   
2. how would you describe yourself?
   sobakasu (i hav no idea wat this means...)
   
   
3. what do you like in a guy/girl?
   Leave out all the rest (right....)
   
   
4. how do you feel today?
   Stroms over Afica (wow...)
   
   
5. what is your life's purpose?
   Wish you were here (hmmm....)
   
   
6. what's your motto?
   No air (holy Shit...)
   
   
7. what do ur friends think of u?
   you're beautiful (Oh My Goodness)
   
   
8. what do your parents think of you?
   Numb (shit...)
   
   
9. what do you think about very often?
   stop and stare (right....)
   
   
10. what is 2 + 2?
    someday (yea....)
    
    
11. what do you think of your best friend?
    I'm like a bird (hmm...)
    
    
12. what is your life story?
    Vampires Will never Hurt You (WTH?)
    
    
13. what do you want to be when you grow up?
    Dame! (o.0)
    
    
14. what do you think when you see the person you like?
    over and over again (....)
    
    
15. what will you dance to at your wedding?
    where is your boy tonight? (it is getting worst n worst)
    
    
16. what will they play at your funeral?
    wont go home without You (............)
    
    
17. what is your hobby/interest?
    you and ur hand (cannot look on anymore)
    
    
18. what is your biggest fear?
    exo-politics (???)
    
    
19. what is your biggest secret?
    feels like tonight (o.0)
    
    
20. what do you want right now?
    I hate this part right here (yea...)
    
    
21. what do you think of your friends?
    The Fast and the Furious (holy....)
    
    
22. what will you post this as?
    My only one
    

LIFE

when sights the 1 tat brings u to ur downfall of life. . .it can mean tat u hope is gone or...it is just a motivation...?

THE REASON BEHIND MOODY-ness of CENGAL

well. . .it all started like this. . .
Pn Sharon : ok class everyone hand in ur karangan umum books now...
5 Cengal : *silent Strikes*
Pn Sharon : quick hand in ur karangan books now i want to check...
Me N my Gang : OMG die le la...
Pn Sharon : ok now everyone stand once i call ur name u can sit down

Start calling name. . .

ENDED up More than half the Class was still STANDING...

Pn Sharon : since u all dun hand in ur books do 3 karangan umum hand in on Friday
5 Cengal : Teacher but...*no energy le..*

CONCLUSION : thought tat 2 karangan berpandu in 15 mins was bad hand in in a week...
but 3 umum in 5 days? SHIT LA. . .so dun kacau the CENGAL. . .haha

BEWARE of Wat U SAY...

Things may seem like it suits the situation but yet things a out of our control of wat the other thinks so....beware of wat u say it might cost u something really more than u can imagine....

The LOVE education Minister..

LOVE is... LOVE la...aiyo how come u dun know 1...so cha 1...haiz...

*cough*
K..more serious

Love was categorize but was misunderstood like me here...i hav no idea of love... dun understand read the 1st line again... if u still dun understand den..........GOOD because i dun 2....hahaha

Back...but for how long?

yes!!! Back at last. . . but i hate this modem look so stupid hope it is just temporary...1 more THING i hate long sentences it makes me lazy to read on. . .

2nd day 2nd post...

Life Is Death? Or... Life is Life? Confused? or Confused not?

2nd day 1st Post...

I have nth to write and am actually writing NOW...So....Am I Writing now?Hmmm....

2nd post of the day...

View or View not? Choice is in your hands....Not? Today a weirdo writes weird things....hahaha? LOL

The New One

well....i shall say good luck on reading this.....