dissapointment

o well...i suppose i still can write "poem" without seing her...i hope... lets try 1...

God is almighty,

He is the highest on heaven and earth,

Obey him no matter what,

For no God hates his people and want them to do bad...

next is about her...lol...

she will be there,

there in my heart,

the place where it stands high,

will never fall till it really end...

past and present

life was thing i look forward to last time,
but now it once the sword came,
and i accepted the pain,
it all dulls down...

the face smiles when u see me,
but the heart was inserted a dagger every time,
every time i see you still the same happen,
so i have to be a zombie that dun feel...

zombie may i be,
but i know what is happening,
and i know every happening was from u,when with u
but now everything i must hide also from u, when with u

so i shall end now, for now...
peace to the world,
may it have peace in every soul,
may all souls find the peace of heaven and earth...

well...

well...it had to come to this...
hmmm...i hope no grammar or anything error...lol
fine...
things fine....
things are fine...
things are just fine...

that was a double edge sword...
how pain it was...
but paradigm shift have to be make...
for it cannot be like that anymore...

right, right...
it was for my own good...
the fantasy of mine ends...
and the reality has to come...

why...2

fine...the answer did come...

answer was like...
what i hope it would be...
but yet...
things just seem weird...

something is not right...
where is the answer now???
where can it be???
where is the puzzle???

why...

k lo...short 1 lo this time..very short...hope the 1 i want you to read do read this...haiz...


suddenly the uncertain comes,
it strike hard,
so i asked a question,
hoping to clear the cloud.

till that answer come,
nothing shall be done,
when the answer come,
all cannot be undone.

please give me the answer now,
for the clouds are covering you now,
and I'm afraid of it now,
why must it be now?

4 to 5 words...a sentence...

In this blog there is no actual sequence or arrangement cause i too lazy to do it...sry...
IF...IF only you are good enough, only some is the one I'm feeling now...others are like words between words...

Infatuation is a feeling,
Like is a feeling,
Love is a feeling,
Lust is a feeling.

The meaning of feeling,
Is so close yet...
It can be far,
For it is categorized.

Infatuation will become like,
Like will become love,
And love wouldn't lust,
For lust isn't love.

It is fun to infatuate,
For the feeling is weird.
Weird and yet somehow good.
Good yet can be bad...

Like is higher infatuation version.
For it is better understanding.
Understanding comes when you decided,
That you might have chance...

Love is further in life,
Where the dream comes true.
The one dreamed is here,
And the yearn is there.

Then what is this lust?
Lust when want the extreme,
It is not like love,
For love is the maximum.

The dream is there,
And dare to dream.
Dream might come true,
Or dream of disaster.

When feeling dulls down,
What would it mean?
Wanting to be there,
and hope for otherwise...

See what you want,
But things are horrid,
For the sight comes,
And tears the heart...

Yet you want to see,
For it is very smoothing,
Avoiding what hurts the most,
but have seen it all...

Choice to choose was yours,
Yet choice not been made,
So hope the best answer,
And heart wonder every time...

Hope to be one,
One be with it,
Yet it's not you,
Can you not it???

Meditate what is seen,
Outcome of the seen,
Has yet it seems,
And seems to sin.

Though it seems sin,
What is to sin?
Look to be sin?
Or sin to look?

Yearn what is yearn not,
Yearn not cannot be yearn.
Yearn what is the right,
And have rights to yearn...

Ask what is not asked,
Asked will be ask,
Ask to be ask,
So ask not ask?

Ask seem be right,
Right to just ask,
Ask gets whats right,
un-right when no asked...

Lie is a lie,
Lie cannot be white,
Lie cannot be dark,
For lies stays lies.

Why all the lies,
If lies isn't needed?
To cover up right?
Or to cover lies???

Lie to the right,
Sad to be right.
Weaker is lies rights,
Yet lie is right...

Hope right is the right,
If right is not right,
Then rights not all right,
When rights not given right.

Rest is the test,
Test is the rest,
Rest not the test,
Test not the rest.

Rest not the thought,
Thought not the rest.
How to rest thoughts?
When thought rest not???

Things can be ended,
End would the things.
Why end the things?
When things not ended???

life...

This is about life...so ya...should be happy... XD

You hear joys of life...
More than sorrows of life,
For life is once in a lifetime...
There were never meant to be a second.

Cheers for every minutes,
For it might be your very end,
Life is valuable like the formation of diamonds,
It is meant for grateful people...

Life is like a plant,
For a not watered plant,
Is like a life waiting to be end...
So nourish yourself so life do not end...

Nourish with what is good only,
Do not absorb what is bad,
For a plant that is watered with acid dies.
So beware of what you are nourish with...

A plant has soil for foundation,
So is foundation important in our life.
For whatever reason it maybe,
Do for getting a better base...

Be kind and never stingy,
For even a plant needs hole for excess water.
Why keep what you do not need?
Give and you will receive other you might need.

Live in truth and never in darkness.
A plant grow in light and not in dark.
Wilt it will with the absence of light.
So do only the just and right...

Plants grow with spread out roots,
So should we have open arms.
To receive what is bestow
And keep and use for whatever is good...

A plant is cut and trimmed...
To make it beautiful and ever grand...
So should we right what is wrong,
So we can be the true standing light...

Joy and Happy...

well...some1 Just someone will not say who...say that my previous blog was emo...so ya...
got 2 more today, actually 3...1 emo 1...heh...anyway will try to put the happy 1st...
dun know how happy can happy be but who cares...
haha...emo 1 are better to write... XD

Joy and happy are just words of descriptions,
Words that are simple yet thoughtful,
Can it really be just one word?
Or is it words with thousand feel?

Happy, happy, happy,
Words that should bring memories,
Memories of thing that fills with joy,
Joy that make the heart feel so blessed...

Memories of joy are like graces,
Getting something that was not to get...
It did not come because we were near to graves...
But a accumulation of gifts of simple task yet...

How nice it is to thought of it...
It is not made nor destroyed,
It is we who decide of it...
To be thrown or to ignored.

Steps of sorrow may be dark,
But steps of joy is ever bright,
Like a path of way of pleasant light,
That is the hope of every might...

Jumping of joy may sound un-right,
But it is true when happy fills the heart.
Happy are those who are so kind at heart,
For if darkness come joys their might...

Though it may seem joy is hard to reach,
It is like choosing a comfort bench,
That will be a place of rest,
Rest in mind and feel so blessed...

DONE 1st SHOuld BE Happy 1...

dun have time to type the other 1 out so maybe later...
sry folks.. Xp...heh...

damn free...LOL

this is what happens when u cannot do physic for like......1 or 2 hours? heh i also dun know
so ya...dun know how the hell i come out with this but ya...emo 1...haha

here it is...Dun ask what it mean...because i dun know how the hell I got this also...maybe because I did not study my physics... xp

How could I be the one u like?
How can I be your brightest light?
How can I be a selfish me?
To not think of your feeling...right?

Why can't it be the only one?
Why must there be a second tide?
Why did I wanted to be your pride?
For it would be choice of injustice made...

Where can it be that I forget?
What would it mean to forget you...not?
No matter how hard i try...
It would be like a lonely joy to say...never...

Your words of nonacceptance,
It was a horrid night to me...
Your word also can be so delight,
It was words that stay every night...

Like a stone at the corner of the house,
Try as hard to be the central light...
But move not were he all day and night,
It was you who it will strive...

Attention was given to you alone,
But it would mean like a sharpening stone.
That will make those beautiful things wear off,
And will make things sharp for you...

This will never end till death,
For death be the only rest,
Rest will bring the unwanted test,
Test that will clear the mess...

This may sound like a old man's vest,
That is worn and torn,
But the truth that hurts the most is,
The thought of letting you go...

NOOOOOO...THE END...LOL...

sadness...

things just dun seem to be in the right order,
things just dun seem to be fitting in,
things just dun seem to be like it is suppose to be there,
things just dun seem to be working,
things just dun seem to be there,
things just dun seem to be right,
things just dun seem to be wrong too,
things just dun seem to be going as wanted,
things just dun seem to be getting better,
things just dun seem to be good by asking,
things just dun seem to be good with all the media,
things just dun seem to be good by just answering,
things just dun seem to be good by just slacking
things just dun seem to be well of by ignoring,
things just dun seem to be well to by caring,
things just dun seem to be ok with what is going to happen,
things just dun seem to be ok with where it is heading,
things just seem to be undone,
things just seem to be unrepairable,
things just seem to get worst,
things just seem to be unjust,
things just seem to be so sad...

why the things cannot always be 100% what we want it to be?
why the things are just somehow against us?
why things can just twist one persons mind?
why things can just be describe but yet seem to be something missing??
why? why? why?
why just can it be the way of the how we want it to be??
life somehow can be saddening if thought of like this...
life can also be cheerful if we just have acceptance...
but where is this acceptances roots?
where can it be found?
how?
too much sadness too by wanting to find it...

Things happens....

when tell too much....things happens....
when ask too much....things happens....
when do too much....things happens....
when seek too much....things happens....
when care too much....things happens....
when study too much....things happens....
when know too much....things happens....
when think too much....things happens....
when wonder too much....things happens....
when find too much....things happens....
when money too much....things happens....

THIS is the newton 3rd law....haha....action and reaction....

how much different does it make?

how much different does it make to ask?
how much different does it make to lie?
how much different does it make to say?
how much different does it make to ignore?
how much different does it make to answer?
how much different does it make to do?
how much different does it make to seek?
how much different does it make to emo?
how much different does it make to not to be there?
how much different does it make to be there?
how much different does it make to be good?
how much different does it make to be kind?
how much different does it make to be evil?
how much different does it make to hate?
how much different does it make to be happy?
how much different does it make to accept?
how much different does it make to non-acceptation?
how much different does it make to act?
how much different does it make to laze?
how much different does it make to wait and see?
how much different does it make to just do it?
how much different does it make to just think of it?
how much different does it make to just learn from it?
how much different does it make to just like it?
how much different does it make to write it down?
how much different does it make to memorize it?
how much different does it make to make things up?
how much different does it make to just back away?
how much different does it make to continue this?

how much different? how is it measured? how is it possible?
how things are just like that....

things...

2nd emo post....yeah...muahahaha

things are yet to be known,
things are yet to be decided,
things are yet to be heard,
things are yet to be seen,
things are yet to be ask,
things are yet to be done,
things are yet to be lied,
things are yet to be answered,
things are yet to be judged,
things are yet to be settled,

things are yet to be things...
things are yet to be laughed at...
things are yet to be like a dream...
things are yet to be like a obligation
things are yet to be like ME!!!!haha....

WANT TO....

since it has been like...lets see...
2 happy post... so it shall be and emo 1 here now...
dun want to b emo? i would suggest u dun read on....
any unbalance emotion caused by reading...
is not the fault of the author...
LOL...

want to forget, but the scar is there,
want to remember, but things should not be like this;
want to be sad, but there is no reason,
want to be happy, but things are just like this;
want to release, but the heart cannot accept the fact,
want to hold on, but things preventing this;
want to talk, but there seem to be something there,
want to stop the talk, but hate to do this;
want to avoid, but it is still there,
want to avoid-not, but things happen to be like this;

want to do this, but this is what happen,
want to do this not, but have done it le...haha...

why this post?? read the topic again....hehehehe