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The time of winter is here,

Yet again lonely slow night strike,

Maybe it never meant to be.

Truth is best known the least.

I will definitely miss her presence.

Like previous only memory left again,

Nothing will ever last I suppose,

Maybe  god is  joking with me,

And now everytime i am afraid,

Afraid never will i find her.

God,  enough joking around with me.

Life will be full of disappointment,
Life will be full of sadness,
Maybe life is not so meaningful,
Maybe life is just another hell,
Maybe life is just a disguise prison,
Who will really know, really?
Many made life so fulfilling,
Yet how many gave up on it?

New Year Dilemma

So I decided I am no one,
Yet you post,
"Let go, be grateful, and move on"
I know I did not wish you,
But deep down I guess that is not me.
Days since I started a conversation,
Always thinking maybe you would start one,
If only I knew who the person in car is,
If only I knew who you missing now.