remembering those time...
time where this just settle down...
yes, all was perfect...
but then, dun know what happen...
maybe God wants to give me something...
something better...
I dun know how good it is...
but I do miss the times...

which one is more likely to kill you?

live without her voice?
day without seeing her?
memory without her?
moment without forgetting her?
heart that will not let go?
brain that keep remember?
or just plain her?

how much can a person not know?
how much can a person not see?
how much can a person not think?
how much can a person not understand?

how much truth can a person know?
how far can a person see?
how many possibilities that can be think?
yet how deep can a person understand?

to lose or to gain?
to accept or to deny?
to remember or to forget?

to see or not to see?
to move or just blindly stare?
to hate or just plain friendly?

nothing of the above I can do...
for nothing favours me...
so i just do what i do best...
to disappear from that kind soul...

another rainy day...
looking up i say...
please lead me the way...
i have gone astray...

here on earth i lay...
just wanting to see the ray...
and hope to just get away...
so everything may just be okay...

clam my hands on the head...
squeeze it until blood flow...
from the nose, eyes, ears and mouth...
making the eye balls pop....
leaving 2 hollow slots...
the eye balls tingling just on par with the nose...
the ears then flush out the insides...
the brain liquid slowly coming out from the nose...
the mouth quickly form bubbles....

yuck...disgusting....hahaha...dun imagine...opps...too late....

stare into the sky on a rainy day,
it has all that I want to say...
I want to have a place to lay,
where I can just forget the day...

the sun come with its ray,
all pain nicely hidden by hay...
question all the pain as you may,
but it will be hidden when there is ray...

with the wind I sat at the bay,
with the problem in my way...
what can I do to give it a pay,
for that second to leave it at bay...

ever wonder why the life is like this???
ever wonder why love is called love???
ever wonder why friends form friendship???
ever wonder why hatred just destroy it all??

all the answers is in your self...
all the answers must be answered by self...
all the answers are formed by self...
all the answers should ONLY come from the heart within our self....

bodoh bodoh bodoh...
itu sahaja saya boleh cakap...
memangnya bodoh untuk untuk cakap itu...
buat apa kata orang lain???
padahal diri yang tidak faham...
faham akan perangai orang lain...
faham akan masalah orang lain...
faham akan situasi orang lain...
faham la akan rakan orang lain...

really why are humans like this??
just why can't they understand???
understand that this friends is important???
for a stupid reasons like this you let go...
then what more can people around do to help???
nothing nothing just nothing others can do...
ignorance should be the word...
yet it is just plain wanting to win...
win a stupid war to prove nothing...
nothing but sadness...