meaning behind meaning 1,1;1,3;1,5....

like as i sitting, enjoying the waves hitting,
she enjoyed the nature sound jumbled always illustrative...

meaning behind meaning 1,1;2,1;3,1;4,1;1,1;2,1;3,1;4,1

Like a dove flying over head...
Flying, ignoring all there is at the bottom...
From top everything just look so little...
It's like the world is at your hand...

Every little bit of me now just want to fly..
Fly, never again think of this things...
I really just want not to have this again...
It's just because I cannot take it anymore...

there I lose again...
there I'm sad again...
there I'm speechless again...
there I fall again...

again and again...
like a video got reversed again...
it had to happen again...
but why me again...
sighing again...
dumbfounded again...
gazing to sky again...
hope it will end again...

o well...repeat as it may...
i have to learn to stay...
staying here with all the hay...
which break my fall from the day...

i always have the same thing to say...
when everything don't seem to pay...
and every time i have to be at bay...
yet i will try my best to be okay...

how long has it been...
all of it i have seen...
though small as a bean,
i still need to lean...

staying as low as i may...
expression has all to say...
as it passes day by day...
i'm still here to stay...

oh yes i'm a fool...
always going in the pool...
choosing the wrong string to pull...
breaking down to a kneel...

an advise from a unknown person...
how much will the person listen to the person???
guess it really means nothing to the person...
but it is sad that advise is not taken from the person...

why do people desperately ask for things???
when those answers are there for the things...
to clear on mind about things???
definitely not, as all is clear about things...

i have nth to say already...
nth i say will have effect really...
but because of this i'm quite surely...
that the things i get will be so much more wholely...